If I’m the problem, maybe you’re the reason…

 Don’t get me wrong, I am still extremely pissed at him. I think he’s currently the scum of the earth. I think he’s narcissistic and immature. He’s done me wrong so many times. But I fucking miss him. I know we aren’t good together. And I don’t know if I could ever fully forgive him. I still haven’t told anyone the real reason we broke up. Everyone still thinks I’m the problem. I don’t know. Life is weird. Feelings are weird. I’m not even ready to unblock him on anything. Maybe if he sends flowers asking for me unblock him, I will. But not until then. I have to stand my ground. No matter how difficult it is. But for now, I’ll just keep talking to these losers and letting them entertain me…

Kill me.